Baseball. Basketball. Sibling conflict negotiation. Laundry. Matching socks. Playing with Star Wars action figures. Giving baths. Clipping toe nails. Reading the Penguin book for the 20th time. Watching the "Little Bear" Valentine's Day episode for the 56th time.
But a few weeks ago, I got a call from someone at my tennis club. They asked if I wanted to "sub" for someone who couldn't make her doubles playgroup that day. The club has a childcare room so I thought, "Why not? I could use a little Mommy time on the weekend for once." It would be only for an hour and I figured my boys would have no problem being in the babysitting room for that long—since they were such WELL-BEHAVED kids and all.
Right.
When I brought my boys, ages 7 and 4, to the club's babysitting room, there were a handful of preschoolers there behaving nicely and engrossed in some innocent kid/family movie. The woman in charge was by herself, but she seemed like someone who could keep things under control. I got my boys settled, reminded them to have manners and listen to the lady in charge. They nodded quietly, ventured off to explore the room, and I trotted off with racquet in hand to the indoor courts.
I had a great time. The hour flew by. Boy, did it feel good to take an hour out for myself from a usually jam-packed kid-centric weekend! Once the match was over, I walked off the court with my spirits lifted and ready to return to Mommy duties. But...as I headed toward the court, suddenly I sensed a change in the air. My parental instincts were buzzing. I heard a ruckus. I noticed that the face of the woman working at the front desk looked perturbed; actually, more like disgusted.
"Oh, too bad" I thought to myself. "Someone's kids must be really acting up."
Once I was in the vicinity of the playroom, I looked up through the glass window and saw the sullen faces of my children peering out at me. Were they sad to have been abandoned? Were they bored? No. As it turns out, this time the bad kids in the room were MY kids.
My heart rate shot up instantly. The blood rushed to my face. I pushed through the door of the childcare room and immediately saw that the babysitter had tears in her eyes. My children had made her CRY! And once I asked her to give me the recap, I could see why. Evidently, after I had left to play tennis, my boys went into "Jekyl and Hyde" mode. At school, the boys act the way they have been taught to act. They listen to their teachers. They play nicely with their fellow students. They have manners and know what constitutes bad behavior. I know this, because their teachers tell me this all the time.
But once in awhile, something happens when Kade and August get together and I'm not in the room. They tap into their "dark sides" and feed off each other's negative energy. Like pack animals, they seek out the "weak" life forms in the room and descend upon them.
In this case, they sought out a little girl and started spitting near her and calling her names. They did their patented "hamster dance," which involves pulling down their pants and shaking their butts. They made fun of the babysitter and started heckling anybody who gave them a curious look.
I was shocked. I was mortified. I grabbed those little demons by the shirt collars and dragged them out of there. When I looked back at the babysitter, she shot me a look that said, "And whatever you do, don't EVER think about bring those hellions back here again!"
On the car ride home, my boys sat in the back seat motionless and bracing for a major verbal ass-whuppin.' Before I could get a single word out, I terrified them by the simple act of shaking my head and not blinking. Ten minutes ago I was in happy-go-lucky tennis mode. But now I was in full throttle Sheriff mode. And my boys knew they weren't going to get out of this one unscathed.
When I did managed to speak, all I could utter was: "What were you thinking?" "You know I would never stand for that kind of behavior at home." "What WERE you thinking? "That's not the way I've been raising you." "Just WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!"
Of course, my boys were too parilyzed with fear to answer. All they knew was what they did was bad. And I could see in their eyes, they weren't really sure why they had gone so far to the The Dark Side.
As the daughter of a strict Catholic Mom, good manners and respect for others was ingrained—actually sledge-hammered—into me. And every day since my sons were born, I was intent on ensuring that my kids would not be the brats that made other people glad they didn't have kids. Before having children, I had been to too many restaurants where parents just let their kids scream, run amok, and annoy other diners. I vowed that I would never be that kind of parent. So why, after all my dedicated teaching, would my kids stray so far off the path of Goodness?
Because of course, they are human beings. And they are kids. As much as we try to equip them with manners and instill good behavior, sometimes kids just can't help but be bad—especially when they're not under the watchful eye of their parents. And as much as as this incident upset me, I can now see the good that came from it.
I see that my youngest son is still in the phase where all attention—even bad attention—is good attention. I now know that he'll do anything and suffer any consequences to make his older brother laugh. I also see that his older brother needs to develop a "stronger spine" and not lose his sense of values when he's being pressured by others to do things he shouldn't. The bad behavior spawned a series of constructive conversations with both of my sons. Although I had been teaching them good manners, they didn't really "get" that this was a personal mission for me. By offending the babysitter in the childcare room, they had offended and disrespected me.
I also reinforced my disappointment with some punishment that really drove the point home: No video games, no legos, no dessert/treats—for THREE WHOLE DAYS. During those three days, there was a blissful calm in our household. The boys didn't squabble. They did as they were told. They were clearly just happy to not see the wild-eyed look in their Mother's eyes.
Of course, in the weeks since this incident, there have been bouts of bad behavior here and there. But overall, a big lesson was learned. The boys now try to think and act more like Luke and less like Darth Vader—whether Mom's around or not. And Mom has learned not to take it all so personally. No matter how hard I try, sometimes "the bad kids" will be my kids. From now until they leave the house for college, the battle to instill kindness, decency and compassion must be fought, day in and day out. Hopefully one day it will stick and become part of who they are. (And as for the childcare room at the tennis club? I still haven't mustered up the courage to bring my boys back.)
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